But we can’t

Today would be the 3rd last day of attachment, and it seems everything is finally starting to unravel and fall to pieces.

Today, for the first time, I feel like the presentation tomorrow will become a massive fail.

Today, the 12 weeks of spending five out of seven days a week in an office is starting to take its mental toll.

Today, the prospect of doing office work the rest of my life has stopped appealing to me.

I knew you’d laugh at that last one!

Truth is, it is the 3rd last day of attachment, and truth is, I can’t wait for it to end now. Office people live such poor lives. They either have all that money, and no time to spend it, or little money, and still no time to spend it. And different factions sit at opposite sides of a long table and shout at each other about who’s at fault and who should pay for what, and incentives and rewards and penalties and settlements.

It’s just a little sad.

Anyway, I’ve just been told that there’s too little information in my slides and I’ll have to stuff more in (basically my entire speech), and it has to be done by lunch tomorrow, at which time I’ll do something that (only vaguely) looks like reading off a PowerPoint presentation. Here’s an idea: take the slides and read them yourself!

It’s like taking your Singaporean car on a road trip to Malaysia; there’s absolutely no conceivable point. Not from any angle.

Don’t consider this an angry post, however; this was an experience God blessed me with, and it makes for good anecdotes to be shared over a campfire and marshmallows. For that I will be eternally grateful. This is a grateful post. :)

Ohhhhhhkay, back to work.

Nothing comes from indifference

Blogging from Changi Airport Group’s corporate office! :)

Thank God for yesterday’s CG, the theme about reconnecting our private and public lives was really important to me, because the gap between both, determine our righteousness. I have kept my list of negative attributes, and am gonna pray and work on them! Tomorrow’s Benjamin will be better. :D

Thank God for this past weekend’s Ushers Camp! At first, I was reluctant to serve in the games comm because it meant I wouldn’t be able to play the games with the others, but the whole experience, from the preparation pre-camp to Cheryl’s and my station, facilitating the game, has really blessed me greatly! Had one or two personal breakthroughs too, to be proud of. :) Felt the family feel in the Ushers ministry too throughout the whole camp, and it really really really really felt great. Am super grateful for everyone, and especially for God Himself!

Thank God for TPG and EngIT’s halloween event this past Friday, for granting it smooth flow and enjoyment value! :) Bet everyone enjoyed it eh. Thank God for the nice people involved, for putting in God-glorifying effort!

Lastly,
I pray for the remainder of the week, that it’ll be fruitful for all who pray.
I pray for TPG and TP, to claim Your promise that our efforts to achieve the Great Commission will not be in vain.
I pray for my sheep, that they’ll continue to walk in Your ways and never give up.
I pray for myself, for the personal breakthroughs You know I want so so much.
Thank You dear Father, for You!

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Back at work, taking a rare chance to use the internet. :) It’s getting busier, but more fruitful. We always feel more accomplished when we finish something that requires us to come out of our comfort zone, which is what I’ve been doing since I started work here. God’s been blessing me greatly! Thank You Father!

Unexpectedly, also earned an off day in lieu of Deepavali. Thinking of using it tomorrow, to have more time to buy the materials for usher camp games!

Also had one of those days, when I had to step back, and let God piece back together what I’ve broken over the past few days. That’s because I had no idea what was wrong, but I felt really really really suckish. But my time spent in silence, really helped me get back on track. Refreshed, and ready to refresh others! :)

Thoughts too fat for Twitter

I had intended to make this blog a cheerful one. So I shall. :)

Again (and yet again), thank God for the new brothers, Alvin and Nicolas! It can only have been Him. TPG hasn’t had any fresh blood for the better part of a year, so when two decide to open their life to Jesus in one night, there can be no other explanation. He is good!

Work presented me with another annoyance today. I entered the office to find that somebody had the bright idea of shifting the furniture around FOR NO APPARENT REASON, and now there isn’t a table close enough to the power point for me (or the other interns, for that matter) to use. So it’s back to the power-or-internet-connection thing I experienced at the beginning of the attachment; you can’t have both at once. I needed to do my work in the office lobby because the wireless doesn’t reach my cubicle, but to do so, I’d have to do without power. And my lappie battery is too messed up to last long. Yup, annoyance. :(

Still, I’m determined, to squeeze something positive out of the next 5 weeks before attachment ends! Praying!

I’ve got a complaint about my home life too, but that shall wait till I’ve got inspiration to complain creatively. :) And I promise to complain in a cheerful way.

Here we go again… again.

I’m opening a blog, for what must be the 65,312th time? :) Just thought it be fun. And I can use it to learn how to fiddle around with WordPress’ settings, and maximise the usefulness of the other WordPress I maintain for Changi’s use.

Besides, some thoughts are too lengthy to be confined into 140 characters. If yer know whaddye mean. ;)

So. Here we go again… again!

Yesterday, witnessed the baptism by water of a great man of God, Yeo Xi Yang. Thank God for you in my life, as a great inspiration and motivator! Continue to do right by God. :) I’m sure the Big Man Upstairs is proud of you too, as we all are.

COD4 was awesome, guys! Most fun I’ve had in front of a ‘puter monitor for a while now. I fear now our Saturday nights in the near future will be filled with blood and gore and laughter. :)

Today, spent the day outside of office (which is a blessing in some ways and a curse in others), to conduct a mall study on none other than VivoCity, my old stomping grounds. Naturally, I took some time before Carissa arrived and we had to start on serious work (HAHA), to visit GV again.

The thing was, the place didn’t feel familiar anymore. To think, it used to be my second home. This time round though, it felt weird and empty (not in the literal sense, it was crawling with people, turns out today’s a holiday in lieu or something? :S), like something was missing. Thank God though, got to say hi to some familiar (and sorely missed) faces and have a chat with some others, and all was right in the world once again. Got to catch up a little with Faizul, Desmond and Juwita, said hi to Jing Rong and Cao Li, waved to Herwinda who was now sealed behind the ominous glass panels separating the Gold Class elitists from the traditional commoners (?!). Grabbed my final (REALLY final this time) payslip from the little Sebastian, and left. Couldn’t say hi to those at the box office, as they were wrapped up in serving the swarm of piranhas which was the holiday crowd. Anyway, GV people, you know who you are if you read this, you’re dearly missed, whether you want to be or not!

It’s also strange how feelings change over time. Like how the honking sound my home’s “whistling” kettle makes when the water boils used to send me into a fit of twelve-year-old giggles, but doesn’t even solicit a smile from me anymore. It scares me to think one day I’d no longer marvel at God’s miracles. I guess I could still be appreciative of God’s blessings and wonders forming in my life, even if one day I’ll no longer be surprised. :)